Unit 3 Reflections

Based on my relection of myself, I have qutie a bit of work to do regarding all aspects of my wellness. My physcial wellness is by far my strongest level of wellness, which I would rate a 6 or 7 out of 10. I exercise on a very regular basis and make it a point to exercise all regions of my physical body. I also am very aware of what I eat and make every attempt to take care of myself with no pharmaceutical intervention. Spiritual wellness would be my weakest apsect of total health. I have very mixed feelings about many believes, and struggle with which I feel the most comfortable with. I have struggled with this for many years and I am not sure if I will ever give myself the freedom to completly practice a spiritual healing belief, so a rating of 2 or 3 would be appropriate. That leaves the psychological apsect of wellness. This is difficult, because I would like to believe that i have it all together in this area, but reality states that none of us do. I try to recognize my shortcomings and to accept them for who i am, but make the changes that will make me a more generous, forgiving and understanding person. So, with all of this in mind, I would give myself a rating of about 5 or 6 out of 10. A physical goal for me would be to ride a 100 mile bike race. I have just recently taken up riding, and have found it to be one of the best thngs I have ever done. When I am riding is when I feel the most like me and the freest I could possilbe feel. It is absolutely amazing!! Spiritually, I would like to set a goal of medidating three times a week. I know that does not sound like a lot, but for me that would be huge. The final goal I would like to obtain would be to control my initial reactions to things better then I do. I have a tendency to react before thinking, which has not gotten me in trouble, but has made co-workers pause on occasions. An activity that would help me reach my physical goal would be to ride three times a week, increasing my distance by five miles each week until I obtain the distance of 100 miles. For the meditation goal, I could start with one session a week and increase that every week or two until I reach or surpass my goal. I also think that starting the sessions at a duration of about eight to ten minutes initially would help to keep me focused, and then increase the time every couple of sessions until I am confortable with 30 minute sessions. As far as controlling my reactions, that takes pratice and being aware that it is happening. I am very blessed that I have co-workers who work with me on this by tactfully letting me when I am doing it. I have been told that I have made huge strides in this area of my life, so I will continue to work with it as I have been. The exercise that was assigned was very relaxing at first, but then became stressful. I am a high energy individual and it is very difficult for me to settle and relax for more then a few moments. I start with telling myself how great this is going to be and how good it would be for me to make this a lifestyle change. After about seven or eight minutes I start to get fidgety and then after about 10 or 12 minutes I cannot stand it anymore and start doing other thngs while I listen. Any advice on how to overcome this would be greatly appreciated!